Carla Lawson - August 2018
It has been six long years. Six years too long and by now your case is closed. It never saw any justice. Because of a defunct system.
Molly, I am sorry it broke me, that I allowed it to get to me and turn my back in a sense.
Two weeks ago today I was asked to return. Molly, it was not easy but I decided that I would. I know it will be gut wrenching, heart breaking and emotionally tiring. I know there will be many tears, a lot of anger and protest of injustice.
Molly, I promise I will do my hardest for the ones that will come before me. I promise I will do everything in my power to make sure it is done to the letter of the law. I will be patient and kind. I will be understanding and firm. I will be strong and gentle.
Molly I will never ever forget you as you were put down in my trailer, I will never forget my two hour drive crying to my house and the hour long trip to Take you for the necropsy. I will never forget the wire in your leg, the poisoned blood in your system, but the all important sigh that came from your body when I held you before the plunger relieved you from pain and into the waiting arms of the man that gave you life in your mother’s womb.
Molly, I won’t give up! I will fight harder, I will remember you first and foremost as always the one I let down and then angrily turned my back because it was mishandled horribly by authorities. Molly, I have accepted the fact that there isn’t a damn thing I can do to help you. That I can make a difference to those now. Yes it has taken six years to come back. Perhaps, I needed the break to regroup. Refocus and remember that Molly was still a forgiving soul that not only was sweet and kind but she calmed me and told me it’s okay to win a few and lose a few.
Dearest Molly, thank you for the gentle reminder today. I shall tell the world about you and I am grateful for your lessons about life.
Humbly yours, Carla
Story's about equine that have come through the doors of two Tennessee equine welfare organizations our CEO founded/directed. Horse Haven of Tennessee 1999-2016 and Hearts of Horse Haven 2018-present.